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Chapter 3: Change by alcoholocaustic, literature

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Chapter 3: Change

The smoke looked as if... as if it was forming something. Like it would come alive in front of my eyes, it clung to my house like a needy child. Blinking back tears, from the smoke, I rolled my hands into fists and climbed out of the car. Fear hit me, telling me to get back in the car and run away, just drive as far away as possible. The emotion felt as if it wasn't my own and I pushed it to the back of my mind, along with the real fear I was feeling. Fear of my life changing, fear of my parents disappearing, fear of the smoke. The closer I got the more people there were. Firemen, police, gawking neighbours. They sat like vultures perched ou

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forever and a day by alcoholocaustic, literature

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forever and a day

the past is the past, they say and I just, maybe, figured that out today i put it away, where i'd like it to stay forever forever forever and a day there are these new thoughts, which i want them to stay forever forever forever and a day hope used to be a futile emotion, but now it's become a wonderful notion even without my dependent weight, i can hold myself up, which i know you hate you can go on missing me forever forever forever and a day

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Disregard by alcoholocaustic, literature

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Disregard

my muse my lover my shining light you're all my darkness wrapped up tight you fuel my fire my burning plight you're the whisper that gets me through the night when I cry your always there that understand smile and that murderous glare I know you'll protect me even from myself and hide the things I shouldn't see help me grow to who I need to be my muse my lover my shining light you're all my darkness wrapped up tight

Desire, he called. by alcoholocaustic, literature

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Desire, he called.

And what of desire she said with pursed lips to roll the seeping out of her very soul He looked her in the eyes thought of solid blue skies and said Desire is of the mind and you are in no thoughts of mine A cup of wine, a smile to deceive a silent message he didn't receive She moves about, like smoke through fire setting fear in the hearts of liars His eyes do follow, but they do not see and the leaves do fall from the trees A gulp, and a drop of sweat anxiety he begins to fret She sits in front of him her voice a silent whisper of wind and she said I am your thoughts, your daily bread I am your hunger that can't be f

Common Sense. by alcoholocaustic, literature

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Common Sense.

Back when I was I fool, I learned to be wise in the time it took you to deceive me. The color of the skies was the color of your eyes and they were beautiful. But like all things they turned to rot, and became something easily forgot. But time still passes and memories do fade, and not everyone is meant to be saved. When I was wise, I learned to be a fool, because knowing is so hard to do. And I'll keep letting you deceive me, as long as you always do keep me. And things will still rot, and always be forgot. Time will pass, beauty will become trash. The new will become old, it's something that remains untold.

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The Way...

The way you walked across my room The soft curve of your neck as we lay interlaced had the terrible finality of a dream just before waking. Each kiss tasted slightly of bitterness and the touch of your hands made my eyes wet because I knew I couldn't hold on to you. That which we love is that which destroys us. In selfish desire I clutched at a burning ingot and wondered why I was scarred. Now you have gone and love has failed me.

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An American beauty, she is. by alcoholocaustic, literature

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An American beauty, she is.

I may not have that cyanide look, drop dead gorgeous. But I'm vain, Truly, I am. Not that you would ever notice, you were oh so too busy hogging the mirror and pushing me away with your make up covered hands. Cover it up, but everyone will still see that your cheeks are starting to sag and that those bags under your eyes only get bigger each day. Not that that it matters much to me. What do I care if your skin is slowly melting from your soured bones? Your whole being is rotting. It's funny really. Does it hurt much? I wonder if I pinched you, would your skin fall apart between my fingers? Would it dissolve and disappear ? I

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Imaginary numbers are my forte by alcoholocaustic, literature

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Imaginary numbers are my forte

Won't you add me up, and subtract the rest? If it's like this, then life must be a test. I divide me up, between you and the rest, but you've got the best parts of me. Three/Fourths of this is a lie, but this statement is imaginary. Numbers are flowing through my head, fourteen, twenty, ten won't you let me in again? I can't keep this feeling, it's multiplying like crazy, subtract me out, add in doubt, I'd be greater without all this. If life's like a test, then you should know I was never any good at math.

Imaginary numbers are my forte

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Dec 24
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_{My name is Heidi, I do that writing thing.
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alcoholocaustic

Aug 5, 2013

Holy shit you guys! I'm still alive.

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alcoholocaustic

Dec 6, 2011

I am,

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all that I ever wanted to be, I am free, I am independent. and I don't need you. Let's burn the past.

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alcoholocaustic

Jun 17, 2011

I found.

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A bunch of poems from years ago, and... I'm going to put them on here for public embarrassing. Enjoy.

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All-My-Darkness

May 2, 2012

Been a while.

Still no smile?

Despite the new girl and style?

Come on..it will not hurt to crack one.

(Im aware of the immense hipocracy in all I say)

alcoholocaustic

May 4, 2012

Oh I smile, on and off,

when I see her, of course.

Damn parents and their habit of grounding children for stupid shit.

All-My-Darkness

May 6, 2012

Parents are all knobheads.

I know.

I am one.

alcoholocaustic

May 11, 2012

I didn't know this.

Lexi and I want babies,

the turkey baster way.

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Dec 20, 2011

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Aug 29, 2011

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May 30, 2011

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